Push the urge away to feel like yesterday.

It is now 1:30AM. I'm too emotional for my own good and I'm going to work on changing that because it doesn't bring anything positive for anyone around me. I'm mad at people for things that I should only be mad at myself for. It seems like I've lost one of my best friends over the course of the last few weeks. I've realized that what she's doing is almost exactly what I did to Jon last summer before I left for college. I saw myself having all of these new opportunities ahead of me and opted to leave certain constants behind. The constants ended up being people that meant a lot to me and I ignored my feelings and closed myself off from them and it is completely hypocritical of me to be mad at anyone for doing the same thing that I did. I was a jerk and my motives were completely unfair and skewed and if I could change how I was/am I would. I'm not saying that things didn't eventually work out, things always have a way of working themselves out (and I shouldn't be upset because I know this is true and I'll pull through whatever hardships are present at the moment) but I regret the way that I treated people, especially now that I realize how it feels... I got what was coming to me.

To Do:
-Take more pictures
-Work on mellowing out my emotional side
-View situations from the perspectives of everyone involved
-Stop apologizing for my feelings (they're my damn feelings)
-Use the words 'I' and 'me' half as often as I do