Glass bones and paper skin.

"When things start to happen,
don't worry. Don't stew.
Just go right along.
You'll start happening too."

-Dr. Seuss

I'm going to do with this journal what I've done with every journal I've kept in the past: I'm going to over-write in it at first and then leave it mostly blank later on. I'm not worried about it.

Online classes are insanely stressful. Just when I think I have an easy week (after a week that included four 2-4 page essays, three online posts, a chapter exam, and multiple reading assignments) I realize that I missed a significant assignment that was due yesterday, and have another significant one due Friday. It never ends. And this is on top of working 40+ hours a week and never having time to relax and be calm. Camp has become my lounge time, which isn't a positive thing because I'm supposed to be energized enough to plan activities and be active with the campers I work there for. This summer just isn't shaping up to be a great one at all.

After working 8 hours and spending 2 at the gym, I'm home to do a 2 page paper, a 100-word online post, and a chapter exam. Instead I'm complaining and rambling in a blogger journal. Whine Whine Whine.

I've been really down lately. Emotionally and physically. I feel like there is nothing to look forward to in the NEAR future, and the only time I'll be able to finally relax is once school starts up. There are obviously things I'm excited for, but it's hard to be excited when I also think of the negatives that come along (taking time off from work, stressing about getting all of my homework done, etc.).

I really miss Justin lately. I feel really distanced and with him leaving so soon for so long, it's hard to feel close to him. I know this is completely mushy. I've accepted the distance but some times are easier than others. I really like that I've gotten to be better friends with Caitlin. We obsess over working out and being on weight watchers (so ridiculous) and it's a lot of fun. It adds a positive spin to working and working out (though I love working out anyways).

Anyways, this thing is a total ramble-fest. I'm off to read a chapter and take an exam. And then hopefully getting to bed. Until next time!